sad love story.. [part 4]

Honk ~ HOnk ~
with a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.

"jin! Move! Move away!!" I shouted.
But he didn't hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll...




HONK!
"Booomm!!" that sound, so terrifying.

that's how he went away from me. that's how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me.

after that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and sadness of losing him.. and after I spend two months like a crazy person, I took out the dolls. those were the only gifts he left me since the day we were started going out.

I remembered the day I spent with him and started to count the days..when we were in love.. T__T
"one.. two.. three.. "

that's how I began...
"four hundred and eighty four.. four hundred and eighty five.."
it all ended with 485 dolls. then I started to cry again, with a doll in my arm..

I hugged it tightly. then suddenly..
"I love you ~ I love you ~ "
I dropped the doll, shocked.

"I...love...you??" I picked up the dolls and press its stomach.
"I love you ~ I love you ~ "

It can't be!! I pressed all the dolls' stomach as it piled on the side.
"I love you ~ "
"I love you ~ "
"I love you ~ " those words came out nonstop.

I.. love you..
Why didn't I realize that.. That his heart was always by my side, protecting me. Why didn't I realize that he love me this much...
I took out the doll under the bed and pressed its stomach..this was the last doll, the one fell on the road. It had his blood on it.

the voice came out.. the one that I was missing so much..
"Jo.. do you know what today is?
we have been loving each other for 486 days. I couldn't say I love you.. Um.. since I was too shy..
If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you.. everyday.. till I die.. Jo, I love you.."

tears came flowing out of me. why? why?? I asked God, why do I only know about all this now? he can't be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute...



for that reason, to me.. it became courage to live a beautiful life..

It's better to lose your pride with someone you love.. rather than lose someone that you love with your useless pride..

-the end-